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Well I'm glad to say my depression from the other day is not so much in evidence now. That's the upside to being a moody person, I guess - I always know it will pass and my good mood will return.

I think I had a psychological revelation about the other night. Since I am no longer burying my emotions with food, that crying jag was totally normal. I was letting those feelings out. I know that friendships ebb and flow, it just seems like I don't have as many as I used to. Which isn't necessarily true. One thing - I am mourning the loss of my mother as a girlfriend/running buddy. My mom and I used to go shopping together, take occasional weekend trips togethers, but she is no longer physically capable. One of the things about seeing your parents age. I'm so thankful she and my father are still around, but it is weird knowing it may just be a few years left for both. Her mother lived until 89 and was pretty resilient regarding her health. She had her mind until the end, too. With my mom, she feels more like my grandmother in the sense that she gets around like a 90 year old instead of one who's 73. Her mind is nowhere near what it used to be, but I don't tell her that.

I have another couple of friend here in town. I've known one since kindergarten and one since 7th grade. It's good to reconnect with them on occasion, but I don't feel like they totally get me. For instance, I bought the first Sweet Potato Queen book for her and I think she set it aside and never touched it. I've always thought she was a little uptight and the book might be good for her, but I have my doubts she ever read a page. They both know I go to Jackson every year, but I don't think they really understand why.

The one I gave the book to is now fighting breast cancer. I was blown away when she told me. Being diagnosed at 41 is just, I don't know, can't think of a word. I want to be there for her, but I don't want to be intrusive and I don't want to make the friendship forced. So I call her, check on how she's doing. She seems to be handling everything with the best positive attitude I've ever seen.

Notes on the weekend - helped the parents out with the garage sale, thank GOD it's over.
Went and played games with John & Jen and JOhn's friends, which included 2 single guys. That was fun, especially since I didn't get home until 2 in the morning. ANd then ran the clocks up and couldn't go to sleep until almost 4.

Survived the weekly shopping trip to Walmart for groceries,etc. My friend Jelly is a bad influence on me. I am now taking pictures on the sly of women who are inappropriately dressed. Walmart is a goldmine for such pictures. I'll have to post it tomorrow.